Sometimes, I would ask to talk about 'us' just so he would mercilessly fuck me.--How much our marriage had changed hit home for me late one fog-shroud...d evening as we walked home from our local Sushi bar. Matthew stopped mid stride. I looked up to see Jimmy standing in a pool of lamplight directly in front of us wearing a wide-eyed, fearful expression. After a moment of clear panic, the wuss lurched into the street and ran across to the opposite sidewalk. I suppressed a laugh.Matthew stood. Joan said nothing but did have sly smile as if to say to herself, yes, he does have a thing for me. And she was fucking right. Afterwards we had a couple of mugs of coffee and I took the risk of saying to her: ‘Joan, I’m sorry about you seeing my ‘excitement just now. Hope I didn’t embarrass you at all.’‘Not at all, in fact if I am being frank with you Dave I did it on purpose to see if you liked me or just pitied me’. ‘Oh, Joan you soppy thing, I really do like you, in more ways than one’, I. We headed out the door and down the stairs. over towards my car. as we got in i noticed her looking at me in a way she hadn't before. but i shrugged it off as nothing. after we got are seatbelts on i started the car and drove through town to the movie theater. the ride there i couldnt help but glace alittle in the mirror to see how the seat belt rested on her boobs. once we were at the movie theater. we got out of my car and headed in. "So what movie?"i asked. she looked at the movies as we. Some of them deserved it, some of them...”Serana looked at me pity in her eyes. “It’s different with you now, isn’t it? Before, it was your destiny and you were reacting to things without having to think about them. If you failed, then the world would end, so you had no choice. Now, though, you’re having to advance your own agenda, your own plans. There’s a cost involved.”“Exactly. I actually considered just quitting everything and just ... living ... with all of you. I decided that it wasn’t.