Later after indulging in porn, I found my ability to imagine things happening to me, and then start acting them out with older men, incredibly excitin... and sexually gratifying. It was then I started touching men and letting them touch me.After such encounters I would write in a sex diary I kept, of what I felt and thought and these soon developed into stories, much like I write today, and as I wrote, I could feel my excitement rising and masturbate, flash men and make dirty phone calls, usually. Some of these "discipline" spankings were actually worse than his punishment spankings and could involve up to 4 or 5 implements, all chosen by his Father for his particularly rotund buttocks. These implements included eight leather straps, 4 whippy canes, 2 very firm paddles, a riding crop, 2 large rulers and an array of brushes, belts, wooden spoons, spatulas and slippers (and a partridge in a pear tree). Mr. Hammond did not believe that a Father could have too many implements available for. "Well... I'll see you later then..." Amie said tentatively"Ok," Janus said gloomily and put his phone away. Sometimes Amie justmade him so angry. She had it all and she didn't even know. It wasenough to make you sick. Janus wondered if he would feel this way over Red now, but quicklydecided against it. Yes, Red was a lot prettier than Amie was, but shewould probably be confused too, and she KNEW the cost of what she haddone. She had paid it in embarrassment already through him and. His manner suggested money and authority. I took the glass handed to me noting his grey-blue yes which raked me from top to toe with an intensity I was not at all used to.“You must be Jessica”. It was not a question. “Sandra’s been telling me all about you”.“Not everything I hope”, I blushed remembering how Sandra had insisted on knowing all about my small penis hang-up with Frank.We chatted amicably among ourselves about nothing of consequence other than Steven’s lifestyle in Hong.