He felt it moments before the car crash as a child, seconds prior to the fire his brotherset on the family stove, and minutes before walking in the de...tist to find his first cavity needed pulling.At the Twin Fountain country club, he felt it again.It was the last thing Aidan felt before finding himself alone, pinned face-first against a wall in a locked private bathroom, feebly grasping his bleeding nose. The boy holding him from behind his back wasn't particularly strong, or even much. They would pick their heads up and look around every few seconds. There was a smaller one standing there too. I went back to the bed and shook Jack."Jack! Jack! wake up. There's some deer in the yard!" I've seen deer before, go away," he mumbled.I ran out onto the front porch and went to the end, looking over the porch rail. The deer were still there. I watched them move about in the early morning fog. They had incredibly thin legs for such large animals. I was still wearing my tee shirt and. .. it’s true. But my darlings, never in your wildest imaginings will you ever be able to love me more than I love you.”“Let’s go home and talk some more,” I suggested. I said “home.” It didn’t really make a difference where that was, as long as I was with Melody and Lissa.“We can’t go to my place,” Lissa said with finality.“No problem,” Melody replied. “We wanted to show you Tony’s redecorated dorm room. It’s three blocks away.”Lissa looked at us and nodded. We got out of the car and walked to. Sorry that I haven’t been much help lately.”“I’ve been thinking... um... about the last time,” I blurted out, avoiding her eyes.Mom sounded embarrassed: “I’m really sorry about that, I don’t know what I...”I did my best to explain my thoughts: “No, mom. I mean... I’m the one who should be sorry. I want to do it, mom. I just... got scared.”“Really?” Mom frowned, and her hand was moving towards the hem of her nightgown again.“Yes,” I said when her fingers touched the lacy hem. She was hesitant.