On Monday, Jeff and I went to the mall. We both had some last minute shopping before school. At the mall we saw some of our friends and we chatted for...a bit at the food court. It was all normal, until we saw Neal. Neal acted a bit strange around me, and he kept glancing at my body.After we walked away from Neal, Jeff asked me, "How did it feel?" Uncomfortable," I said."Well, you have two choices," Jeff told me. "You can ignore it and stay uncomfortable, or you can embrace it." What do you mean,. I was paralyzed with fear. I did my best to tie it up, but I knew at some point, when she eventually decided to do her laundry she would know. I freaked out. But... later than evening, as I was pretending to sleep (I was wide awake and paranoid) she came in, scooped up her belongings and left. Another solo backpacking trip, this time, in the Netherlands and Germany, I also, more than once indulged myself in some naughty behavior. I was staying in a five room dorm in Amsterdam and when checking. She too reciprocated and she kissed me back. For a brief second, she withdrew her lips and she took a drag from the cigarette and after blowing she kissed me back. I was on cloud 9 now. I lifted her and I took her to my bedroom and there I threw her on the bed. She was still holding the cigarette which was half alive. I tried to go near her and she took a drag and blew the smoke on my face and she started giggling.I grabbed the cigarette from her hand and I took a drag, Now she was fighting. There were even two gold bars marked as being worth $100 each! According to my count, there was $943.72 in the box. That was a veritable fortune. I remember hearing somebody in the wagon train saying that a family could live for a year on $60 if they were careful!I explained to everyone in the family what this much money meant. I was particularly concerned if the word got out that we had so much money. If it did, we would be in constant danger from thieves. Whites would murder for $25, so I.