I did not realize that our maid Vahini(name changed) had realized me watching her boobs. She then covered her boobs with her dupatta and left my room....My roommates were still sleeping so it was not embarrassing for me but I was upset that I might have offended our maid and I was afraid she might leave work as well. I decided to apologize to her so I went into the kitchen and stood at some distance from her and said that whatever happened in morning was unintentional and I am sorry if she felt. "He snapped right back with, "If you had the answer would have been no."That hurt me, I know I asked for it by trying to hurt him with my words,those words seemed crueler.The fight with dad and the bitter words we exchanged left a long-lastingcoldness that we never really were able to put to rest. We tried to benicer to each other; however, the words just hurt to deeply.The days went by with no major changes to my internal struggle I had gooddays and bad days, I was trying to cope with peer. That would have been a better story, but it was just sad lonely me, all by myself." What happened with Tara and Rick?" Riley asked.I chuckled. "They dated for about three months, and broke up after Christmas. So I asked Rick if he cared if I took her out, and he didn't. She and I went out a few times, slept together a couple of times, and you know what -- she was a little crazy, and the sex wasn't even particularly good!"Riley laughed, squeezing my hand."The point of all this, Riley, is to say. The little sissy . . . excuse me, pansy (she just loved being called a pansy) flamboyantly sashayed her way with little itty bitty tiny steps. She swung the door open and presented a lush bright smile. "Yessss?" She said with a lisp."Flowers for pansy." The delivery boy read off his note.Pansy gasped with complete exaggeration and brought her finger tips to her lips. "For meeeee?"The delivery boy looked her up and down with a perplexed expression. "Are you . . ." He looked down at his note.