"We had some money that we had invested over the years. We sold off the investments and stuck our necks out to invest in a co-op with a group of other...like-minded farmers and a few businessmen. During the changeover, we came close to going under – really, really close. And there were times that I seriously thought we had made the wrong decision." But..." Jeff prompted."I had borrowed money – the first time we had ever had to do it – to buy calves, pigs and baby chicks for our new start.. There I was chatting to complete strangers with no problem but I still couldn't even get started with the one person I really wanted to talk to. My chance, it seemed, had come. I saw Karen go off on her own, I waited for a bit and then followed in her direction. I was feeling super confident, at ease with myself, but my stomach turned when I spotted her chatting with a guy at the side of the bar, I then wanted to kick myself as I watched them share a long passionate kiss. That was just my luck.. V. After some shows finished, I still couldnt stop thinking about how good it felt when my brother licked my ass and when I fingered it. I brought it up and said, when you licked my ass today that felt so good I cant stop thinking about it. He sort of looked at me shocked that I just said that but tried to play it off, and said something nonchalant like oh, thats cool, glad you liked it. Now, remember, at the time I had no idea at all this was anything sexual, all I had ever known my anus was. They sure had a huge library for an isolated ranch. Uncle Bob taught me how to read a map. A book on surveying taught me how to make one. The books on geology and mineralogy fascinated me. With the aid of Uncle Bob’s old army compass I started mapping out the valleys up the river, including the elevations. That’s how I found the old mine.It was early July when I hit on it. The road bed was too regular to be natural. I tore away the brush hiding the adit, or mine face. The timber supports were.