Is that agreeable to you?”“Yes.”My mouth was dry and I gave another little cough as the man penned in a few details before pushing the papers ac...oss to me.“As you can see, the contract becomes effective immediately and has a duration of forty-eight hours. If this is not acceptable to you, it can be modified accordingly.”“No, that’s fine.”“Husband away again?” It was as if the man could see straight through me. Then I realized that he knew that I couldn’t be Fair Game for forty-eight hours. . Why did Sarah invite him to her place? To watch "Singin' in the Rain", certainly. And later?She wasn't so sure. She liked Matt, in a funny way, but she didn't know what was going to happen. She did know what could happen. She knew that they could have sex. But she also knew that she could just tell him to go home, after the film. She would think about it later.And Matt had similar doubts. He knew what it means to be in a girl's apartment, he knew he could (and wanted to) have sex with her. A whirlwind of thoughts and images rushed through my mind. I wondered if I had already at some deeper level sensed who she was.What if I told her how much I admired her, how much she excited me at that moment, not just for her looks and sensuality, but because the way that she lived was my greatest wish? Could I tell her that all my life the desire had burned within me to be a woman? I fantasized it incessantly. I fantasized about being pretty, as sweet and pretty as Tessa, and being loved as a. "Oh!" She said. "Well, it's still worth having because it's all programmed with repeaters" Okay, I'm sure we will be making trips into Atlanta to get things in the future."Mom was fast. "What's 'Shirl?'" She asked.Shirley answered, "Jack called me that as a nickname. He didn't know that 'Shirl' is, was, Dad's pet name for me." She teared up a little. "But I like for him to use it." She added quickly.Mom gave me a look and then smiled at Shirley. She didn't say anything. She didn't have to. I.