I’m a narcissist and that’s not the full word meaning narc either. If you don’t know what it means you shouldn’t have been reading what I’d ...ritten so far either.Nowhere in my lists had I written anything about falling head over heels in love with a woman. Everything I wrote to do with the interaction between me and a woman revolved around me. Sure, it’s my list, but in my head, I’d love to fall head over heels for a beautiful woman – as long as she either unconditionally bows to my every whim,. I was nervous our first time. Excited for what lay ahead, but worried about his eyes on my body. Older men know what time and gravity can do to a woman. I couldn’t imagine what he would think of me. My fears were put to rest because we were great together. We continued to meet one on one at the station and every time the sparks flew. Of course it was always fun seeing Jake but one night I remember being amazing. It started with a structure fire so all members of the department responded. It was. It became their habit to spend nights with me, and when Miriam came, she would leave her baby with Maryam, and vice versa. They are fantastic and are still lactating, and having them with me is wonderful. But one day asked if I could arrange for their brother to go to the Gulf, and last year in October I arranged for the same. Just before he left, Miriam-Maryam asked me if they could visit their native place in Kerala as their parents had not seen their children and I said it would be okay.. The deputy that had accompanied me to court came in and got down with me. He said, "You don't ever have to worry about that guy again. He's dead."At that, I passed out.I could hear people talking softly, saying silly stuff like, we have to have a party for him. I recognized Chuck Johnson, the Deputy Marshal's voice saying, "He saved at least one of my deputies and possibly the judge."Mercy said, "I knew he was a good man."Steve Sharp said, "The doc said the bullet didn't damage anything inside.