He let his breath out. “Holy shit.” He whispered. He looked at me with a hint of concern. “You were a virgin?”I unclenched my teeth and nodded...tearfully. “Well now you’ll never forget me will you?” He turned off all his concern and compassion and turned it into something horrible. I felt stuffed. Split in two. My insides were cramping up from the sudden fullness.“Get out of me.” I begged.He ignored my pleading, but let it adjust to the size for a couple of minutes, kissing my chest. He slowly. I chided myself, why am I thinking about sex when my cousin who I haven't seen or spoken to in ages was visiting me, he would be the first family to visit me in China since I started work here 2 years ago. The demons swiftly answered that question much to my annoyance, "Rhea you've been lonely and depressed since forever and for some fucked up reason you always revert to Shan in your imagination to hold you and make you feel safe, feel loved and wanted. As if you mattered, but just so you know. Well, now I don’t call it stupid. I remembered of once seeing some magazines under bro’s bed. I went straight to his room and searched under his bed, and I found a magazine. I was overjoyed with my discovery. Then, I started going through it and was enjoying it. I was feeling aroused by seeing those nude photos, and I started fondling my boobs, was giving out moans.I suddenly felt somebody behind me and two hands on my sides, grabbing both my boobs over my bra. I was shocked realizing someone’s. I looked in the mirror. My face was sweated out, my hair dishevelled, my face and neck red, and my new outfit which I had not yet bought was soaked from my waist down mid-thigh.I put my jeans and blouse on top of the outfit, and straightened my hair. Suzie pulled her skirt down and was fixing her hair too.“We should find Britney and our men,” Suzie suggested.Outside the room, we walked to the counter, where we were greeted by the store guy who was chatting to Richard, the blonde girl whom I now.