"I sighed and said, "I thought that might be true." I never wanted to admit it to myself, because I loved you so dearly. You were my best friend, but ... never felt the same kind of desire for you that I should have. When you changed due to your illness, I guess I allowed Cletus to pull us apart. Some of that must have been my subconscious lashing out at being married to a man. Of course, I went out and married him and I was even more miserable." So you're saying you don't love me?" I've always. When I got home, I sent the boy packing on some pretext. We were now alone! I asked Sushmita that was her name, to sit down beside me. We got talking! Then I asked her whether she would like some tea or something better, like a cocktail! She said that she had never had alcohol before and she was afraid. I told her that she should try it out and there was no need to be afraid at all! She agreed and both of us had a few drinks while we chatted. During this time, I had started moving closer to. We both agreed that it would be awesome to be as comfortable as they were, but neither of us had the guts to do much about it. Instead, we shifted to talking about the girls we thought were hot and would most like to see. My roommate had nicknames for the girls he liked. Usually, something about their appearance because we didn’t know their names and were too socially awkward to ask. Eventually, I adopted some of the nicknames too, just so we had something to talk about. A woman we called. Perhaps you may find your strength in talking the human talk, but it is shadow talk and it is shadow strength and at the last I think you, too, must go to the land from it.”It is the longest Kitik ever speaks to me, and his speech makes hurt in me because he is right. I come to this place for him, and he is still my life, but for a time I lose myself in the wonder and the strangeness that is the humans’ way. But this is not right for Kitik, and I think he speaks true that in the end it is not.