Her psychiatrist and psychologist had spent longhours with her ensuring that she wasn't faking, that she was absolutelysure, and that there would be n... later regrets before giving her thatall-important endorsement. Her mom helped her get ready as necessary(it wasn't, Courtney had been practicing with hair and makeup for almostfour years, but Mrs. Barnes was of course worried also, and wanted tosomehow help). After all, her baby was about to undergo radical andpossibly dangerous surgery. . She was still very scared but thedark cloud of hopelessness had lifted. She did become more nervous asthey approached the gates to the army post. She felt the guard's stare onher as they passed, as if he knew she was not a girl but a boy pretendingto be. The post was typical, brick buildings marked headquarters ofdifferent units while rows of wooden two story buildings served asdormitories for the enlisted men. Her nervousness increased as the blackgovernment sedan pulled into a parking lot. It’s just the sex is just so lacking. I can’t do it, I need more, but I want to be with him. “So, you think I’m just going to be okay with you fucking someone else, cheating on me?” His voice gets louder. “Do not fucking shout at me, you’re the one who can’t please me! I love you, David, but Ryan is staying. I refuse to give him up, if you want to stay with me, that’s what you’ll have to deal with. It’s not like we won’t have sex any more. I’ve been fucking him for over a month now. We still. Erst denke ich mir, was hat sie denn eigentlich dabei, aber dann denke ichmir da es mir zu peinlich w?re es ihr irgendwie zur?ckzugeben, soll siesich einfach bei mir melden.*Am Abend*"Hey, bin wieder da", rufe ich meiner Mutter zu w?hrend ich mit meinemFund in mein Zimmer eile, da grade sie es nicht erfahren sollte, was ichmomentan besitze, schlie?e die T?r zu und lege meinen Fund auf dem Bettaus. Alle Sachen sehen an sich noch eigentlich unbenutzt aus, als ob sieerst heute gekauft wurden..