I can't explain in words how strong the craving to become my Aunt's daughter became in my daily life. I woke up each morning with that thought and wen... to sleep with it still on my mind. Naturally, this constant desire led me to my first adolescent attempt at crossdressing. I wanted to "see" what I looked like dressed as a girl and how feminine clothing would actually feel against my skin. When Aunt Karen was out, I would go up to our attic, where I had discovered my Grandmother's old steamer. Mommy said jokingly said Ishould bake some cookies and invite Kenny to come round for tea. Karenjoked and said, "Ooohh I think Chrissy has a boyfriend and she broke intogiggles. Her giggles were quite infectious and mommy and I giggled too.Karen laughingly said, "I think Chrissy is going be a perfect littlehousewife someday don't you think so Brenda?"I chipped in and said, "Oh don't I get a say in the matter?" and broke intoa giggle myself.Mommy said, "Yes I think so but I wouldn't have. I of course dropped the business I was working on at the time and left the office, telling my secretary I'd be back in an hour or so. I knew the particular car park as she had used it before with another guy a couple of years earlier, I pulled into a vacant spot the opposite side of some bushes from Anne's lovers car. Anne had set it up so that he would park so that I could get the best view without being seen, clever lady.When I first arrived they were just sitting kissing, though I did notice. So … can … I mean you …’ I was stammering on my desire to be with him and how to move on it. ‘Alexa? That is what you call a blush? Are you blushing, Alexa? With me?’‘I don’t know why. I feel silly doing it but it is not something you can control. I am feeling vulnerable and exposed for some reason. My love, devotion, my need. b**st I want you in me now.’ I took control of myself if not him and got up and went over and bent over the fallen tree to put my ass at the ideal level for him. In.