And if I wasn’t, THEN what?If I thought being with April that way was a commitment, being with Tasha that way was as good as being married. And I wa... NOT ready for that, and neither was she, despite protestations to the contrary. Getting married so we could have sex was probably the worst possible reason I could think of. Fortunately, her parents had the same fears, and put strict limits on where we could be together and what we could do together.When we finished eating, I put a tip on the. "I giggled and said "Of course it does, I just hope that Jack takes a nice long test drive once he finds the right car for you. You said it was for you right, so why is he looking and you're not?"Karen said, "Because I don't give a shit about the fucking car, just as long as it runs good and is dependable. The only thing I told Jack was I do not want a Black one. I hate a black car they get to hot, now black meat, I mean men, well, that is a horse of a different color so to speak."We walked. I decided to keep Sue myself. She had the saddest eyes I've seen in my life on a horse and for awhile I wasn't entire sure that she was going to make a full recovery but she did. She's an extremely smart horse with a lovely sweet disposition but she had been ill-used and it took me quite a good long stretch of time with her to earn her trust. She now thinks she's a puppy dog and follows me around the property everywhere and would even follow me inside the house if she'd fit through the front. It’s a decent system with a lot of power and I’d been looking forward to seeing what it would sound like in the pool room, with its high ceiling and all the water. I didn’t think the glass wall would do the sound any favours but I hoped an echo might be a bit like an indoor concert.While I was doing it I took the odd draw from the joints that Lettie rolled; she started a second one, and she and Janie were starting to sound nicely stoned by the time I’d finished. They were lying very close, legs.