.. I'm still convinced reverend Bishop is something other than mortal, and Richard could get hurt. There's no way I could have Richard's pain or even ...orse on my conscience compounded with what's already there. Does that make any sense?" The best of sense." Karen replied returning the smile. Elisabeth's rational thinking put her at ease again. "Okay. I'm outa here. You go and jump into that hot tub and try to relax. Call me at the hotel if you need anything. I mean it, no matter how small, call. Our reception committe of 2 explained that my show had been popular and several other men had arrived. I was asked to indicate whether I wanted to go ahead and if I felt comfortable. I nodded and said I was feeling nervous but also aroused now and how much I dreamed of seeing men masturbate for me. I was asked if one of the men would introduce me or whether I wanted to say anything; I said I was feeling able to tell everyone why I had wanted this opportunity. I asked them how to ask the men to. Don't you want to experience the ultimate sensation?''What is the ultimate sensation? You were being vaporized in a nuclear blast! What can top that?''I wasn't vaporized. You pulled me out. Remember?''What! Did you want to die? You have a death wish?''No! Of course I didn't want to die. I had to! It was necessary!''Why? Why should you do something you don't want to do?'Beth sat still. There were tears in her eyes."To atone," she said, finally, speaking aloud. "To atone for what I did ... It was. I figure if you weren’t so fat and lazy you’d be playing soccer because you’re such a pussy when it comes to contact, but if you’re going to tell half the story it’s probably best if you keep your mouth shut entirely.”The boy tried to stammer something out but Bill Jacobs who finally stepped in.“I think it’s probably best if we keep the conversations about our teammates to a minimum, ladies,” he said loudly enough for the whole locker room to hear. “I think we’ve got bigger things to focus on.