I swear I'm gonna go fucking crazy. Then, I see the icing on the cake:OUT OF SERVICEThe second piece of paper to betray me today. The barricaded eleva...or door informs me that I have to walk all the way down this ten-story-tall building, running into God knows how many dickheads waiting to make me into the highlight of their day. I swear it wasn't broken when I came here, what caused it to... Never mind. Just never fucking mind.I wish I had never been born. My life has been nothing but a series. When practice ended I walked out to fetch my bicycle( freshman weren't allowed to have their truck on campus first year) as I got on it, I came around the corner and there she was talking to her friends. She stopped me "Hey, if you want a pair of knee pads I let you borrow mine" she said with a big grin on her face. Dumbfounded I said " I didn't need them." She said " You never know, they have plenty of other uses". I laughed thinking to myself "stupid, stupid, stupid" Chris Farley line. "I'm. I didn't offer to help with the dishes because I knew being near her would be torturous. I watched television with Ed until Jen joined us and then excused myself, saying I needed to unpack my bags. But after finding a place to store the casual stuff from the small bag, I left the other bag containing my work clothes, suits, shoes and ties, packed.I got into the upper bunk that I had occupied so long ago and found I couldn't sleep.Seeing them at dinner had been excruciatingly painful. The little. " Of course we will let you return Martha. You're family." Thank you. I know I'm going to wish I could stay here and not go back home, but, I do have a job to go back to." I'm going to hate seeing you leave too." all thou I was thinking she could quit her job move here and get another job here."I think it may be the same with me too really." Sarua said, then she reached over and gave Martha a quick kiss on the lips."I know and that, is really the way it is going to be for me too."I moved my.