As I reached the top of the escalator, there was a hotel restaurant to my left but I could see another escalator down at the end of a long hallway. I ...ollowed his instructions and headed down the hallway, got on the escalator and went up to the third floor. My heart was racing in anticipation and the risk of doing this. Wow, this was exciting! I got to the third floor, followed his instructions to the Lady’s bathroom and went down the hallway until I found the men’s bathroom. He was right, this. My first visit to a Tampa ABS theater was in 2001. I sat next to a guy getting a blowjob from his girlfriend and neither one had a problem of me getting very close to the action and watching his cock go in and out of her mouth until he shot his load into her mouth and she happily swallowed every drop. I sucked three cocks that day of mostly older guys each of whom throughly enjoyed cumming in my mouth. After each shot his load I gently kissed the head of each cock as a thank you for letting me. They looked around, found the riding crops and Mark said..." You choose, but it needs to be fairly thick so as not to cut you!" Jenny found a 24" long 1/2" thickwhip with a leather tab end coloured red and asked Mark.."Will this do?" "Admirable" said Mark, they went to the Counter, the assistant asked if they rode a lot. "No, said Jenny, the whip is for my bottom whenever he feels like dealing with me!" The young female assistant blushed and said " Oh ! I've gone all funny hearing that, good. Except, I always took comfort in the idea that they weren't really rejecting me, because they didn't really know the 'real' me. They were rejecting my version of 'the boyfriend'.I was slowly realizing, that playing the boyfriend was a dead end, had always been a dead end, and if I ever wanted something like long-term happiness I'd have to be honest with them and myself. I'd have to learn how to be myself, which was a weird thought. I wonder if I could practice somehow. Maybe go out to bars and.