The doctor said I was lucky to survive that collision myself. I asked about Lisa and he just shook his head. Tears streamed down my cheeks.The police ...ame in and took my statement and said that the driver of the truck had been drinking and was booked for DWI and Vehicular Manslaughter. They apologized for my loss and left. This was my fault! I was speeding. I had agreed to take her riding. I should have left for St. Louis that morning like I said I would. She was dead because I loved her! She. She was filled with anger and jealousy. She reached out to grab him off of Stephanie, and he asked, "Can you take it Jas? Are you ready for me to let her go?" Her hands reached for Stephanie in her fit of anger, and she grabbed a handful of her hair and slapped her as jealous tears streamed down her face. "I can take it," she cried. Eddie stepped back from Stephanie and kissed her lovingly on her lips. The five years that they had shared prepared her to be some lucky man's good girl. They knew. "But why cant I be a man like I am supposed to be? I don't want to be a,a, a bimbo Miss Maddy?" I stuttered."Well now Brenda, would a real man try on his bosses bikini and then gobuy one for himself?" No Miss Maddy," I replied."And would a real man have his body waxed and eyebrows arched high?Would a real man come to work wearing pretty white lace panty with hiscock tucked down?" No Miss Maddy," I replied. "I guess a real man wouldn't. But youhypnotized me to make me do it." You know Brenda,. I know I didn’t. When she finally pulled away, her eyes were shining. She has this thing with her eyes. There is some kind of internal switch thing that she seems to be able to turn on and off. When the switch was on there was a light in her eyes that was mesmerizing, beautiful, dazzling. I thought it only happened when she smiled. She said, “Thank you, Andrew. That was the most beautiful thing that’s every happened to me.”I was still apprehensive. “I wasn’t too rough with you?”She smiled a.