Grabbing my head more or less gently in both hands he pushed in a bit further. I almost gagged again and he told me to relax and concentrate on breath...ng through my nose. I fought the gag reflex. Holding my throat impaled on his spear he let me get used to the thickness of it. When I was breathing more or less normal he would push another inch or so in and then hold me there until I got use to it. Finally I heard him sigh and felt his hot balls lay on my chin.I knew you could do it he said; I. I heard a noise from behind me and as I turned around someone had me by the waist and put their other hand over my mouth before I could scream. "Shhh shh shhhhh" they said. It was Kota. As I realized who it was I started to laugh. "Got her?" Austin said. "Got her" Kota said. They both laughed at me and Kota let me go. I could see both of their shadow-like figures in the midst of the darkness. "Come on" Austin said as he grabbed my arm and pulled me. I thought he was taking me back. And you pushed him away rudely, didn´t you?”she looked at Carl, like “this is too much, .....can´t be true” but Carl had a new spark in his eyes when he turned to me and said“Yes, I think she should..”, by which he turned to Lena and said something in swedish“Eh…I am sorry” Lena spit out between her teeth“nono… guess you have upset the gentleman, so he needs a full explanation” I insisted…and spelled Lena what she should say:“I am sorry, Sir…”“I..am…sorry…………Sir” she repeated with a hardly. I said I would and I hung up wondering.When she saw me she ran into my arms and began hugging and kissing me. I pulled her away. After all, she was a married woman now (damn I wish it were to me). Then it hit me. Maybe the reason she married the other guy was that I was going too slowly, and that was why I lost Carolyn too. Another revelation too late.I asked her what was wrong. She showed me her ring finger by way of an answer. It was bare!"Yes, Barney, it was the biggest mistake of my life.