We tried swinging but it was so - so. My husband wanted to share me with another guy and I was a little suspicious and said no....several times. Then ...e were at a nudist resort in Caribbean I had a it to drink and we smoked a lot of herb and I was around naked black men for the first time in person. Simply said I was turned on by them and they seemed to be attracted to me. A couple of guys in particular paid me a lot of attention - a little "innocent" touching, lots of eye contact, well I was. "Don't worry baby. It will." But I've never had one in me before. It'll rip me in half!" It'll definitely rip you, but you'll be loving it within seconds. Now get over here and suck it like a good girl." Todd?'"Just do it already." He began getting a little more aggressive and the nice guy routine began to change. I loved when he forced me around."O-O.K. I've never done this before." I walked over to him and he ran his fingers through the back of my hair, bringing me in for a deep kiss. I could. I was laughing inside a little,thinking, "Be careful what you wish for! You wanted to know ALL thedetails, right?!"Mother said, "Oh, my! So, Sandy, I know that you say you are notattracted to boys, I get that, but how did it feel to know that he wasso attracted to you? I mean, it's a little bit of a separate question,right? I mean, there's a certain power in that, right?"I said, "No, Mommy, I didn't feel a sense of power. I felt sad.Because I like him and I know I can't be what he wants me. You make my life fun.”Elsa kissed my cheek. “Thank you, my darling man.”Elsa and I glanced over, and saw Cindy being led to the dance floor by a handsome man in a tuxedo. She smiled happily at the man as they started to dance. We could both see them talking as they danced. I felt glad that someone had taken the initiative to ask her to dance. Switching back and forth to dance with the sisters was disconcerting because I always felt I was abandoning one of them for too long.When the dance.