" And the same thing goes with you. If you don't want to do something with me, just tell me. I remember one of Mom's guys didn't like to, as he said, ...Eat pussy'. But most of them did." She looked into my eyes. "Do you?" I think that eating you would be one of the happiest events of my life, babe."Squeal! "Good! "Cuz I want to see if that feels as good as I think it will." She kissed me. "And while ago? When I put your thing in my mouth? I REALLY liked that. I hope you do. I want to do that.. .. well then, where were we; oh yes any incidents this week?" I'm afraid so sir. Nearly every day there's something." Oh dear, really; have you reckoned a number then?" Yes sir, if the Saturday incident counts for five, it adds to eighteen." Saturday... Saturday, what happened Saturday? I have no recollection; Saturday, hmm?" The broom, sir nearly fell over it, in the hallway." Yes the broom. Ah, I remember now. Five is a bit harsh though, is it not? I mean no one was hurt." Could have sir, the. ." Daddy, please! Remember I told you before you read the letter that you are going to hate everybody. If you decide to hate me too — I'd better go and live with Grandma. I am not to blame for what Mom had done and I don't deserve to be hated. Please wash up and come have dinner. We have to start a new life — the life after the letter — and we have a lot to talk about. At least with me, try to behave without hatred and anger. I love you so much I won't be able to bear you hating me too."I. Just like after the horse raped me last year I felt as if someone had kicked me in the stomach.My legs were like rubber. I would have fallen to the floor if the woman wasn't holding me up by my hair. I struggled to keep up as she half led, half dragged me back out into the center of the barn.I was led to a small, plastic kiddy pool and ordered to kneel in the center of it. The lights and cameras were shifted and once more I was the center of attention as men started coming forward one or two at.