"Let's get out of here."We left the casino, but didn't return to the motel right away. I didn't know where Drew was going and I didn't ask. I sat clos... to him in the front of his truck and he put his arm around me, but there was something between us now and I wasn't exactly sure what or why. Something was on his mind though, I knew that much, and I figured I knew what that was. He wasn't going to want to let me go after this was over. He didn't want to marry me or anything foolish like that.. The people started walking on board not long after that. Chris put on the crew jacket and silly sailors cap. And he attached the badge to his belt. It felt good to him to be part of a crew again.He put the heavy suitcases in the racks and informed the passengers where they could go to find themselves a seat.The family with the boy and girl he helped earlier came on board and he overheard the mother trying to calm them. "The weather is not going to be that bad. You are not going to be sick.",. Not just because I'm blackmailing you," Alan walked up to me and kneeled down."Look at me."I looked up at him with tears in my eyes."Because you know, that deep down, you feel the same way. That you don't deserve a woman like Alexis. It's wrong. If we're being honest with each other, I really am helping you realize that. Right?"His question was not rhetorical this time. Alan waited for me to answer him.I just nodded weakly.In some messed up way, he wasn't wrong. I knew I was lucky being with. Show me some mercy sometimes.” “As I remember it, you didn’t protest at all.” “No I did not.” “No, I did not,” I said. “I had my mouth full.” She laughed. She had that clear mountain stream quality to her laugh. It danced in my chest. “Put that down.” She gestured at my cup. “Come here.” She reclined on the bed, smiled, opened her legs and held her breasts. “Come here, I’m not done with you yet.” A woman in charge of her wants is a life-affirming thing to behold. On hands and knees I loomed.