I sat on the disgusting man's lap and felt overcome with loathing. Ofhim. Of myself, perched obediently on his lap. His excitement wasobvious. Ever...thing about the man was repulsive. He looked andsmelled terrible. It was clear he enjoyed having such a well manneredprissy little girl on his lap. We stayed for almost an hour and chatted,Marie carried on a conversation as if she had known him for years whileI silently pleaded to her with my eyes for us to go.Before we left Marie asked,. That'sto be expected, I suppose. It would take a fundamentally damaged person tobe unmoved by some of the things I've seen. Knowing that nightmares mean I'mmentally healthy is not much comfort at three o'clock in the morning, as Itry to push the images out of my head with the palms of my hands. I'll sleep,I know I will, when I'm too exhausted to stay awake any longer. In the meantime,it sucks."Dammit," I mutter, rolling outof bed with the vague thought of getting something to drink from the. It was one of my favoured malls we went to first which had designer clothes at what I thought was reasonable prices. After Di had tried on several of the dresses and didn’t like any the young assistant called over the older lady sitting near the till. She came over and explained that her daughter ran an exclusive designer shop where she felt sure that Di would find exactly what she wanted. We agreed to try it and thanked her for her help, but she asked us to wait while she called a taxi who. I said you know your job is open and your Mom could use a job, I have a nice apartment near where you use to work and I have enough influence with that company I could easily see that she got that job. Kit says your evil I say yes I am when someone tries to hurt someone I love. We kiss a big loving kiss and Kit asks can I come back home, I say of course, but first we need to stop by the court house and get married. Kit says no we can’t not for another week. I ask why she grabs my hand and.