And I have to find a way to not let everything clear and revealed to him. What certainly do I have to carry out? The look and expression in his eyes ..... it is tender and soft and gentle and mild; obviously and unquestionably mild! Damn it! Being emotional and feeling-moved here won't certainly or definitely solve anything at all. No, it surely and precisely won't."Are you okay?" He asks passionately and sympathetically. Crap! How am I supposed to respond to that?"I am fine," I state and declare. Shit, from the way they are always staring at me, I must be the volleyball coach they want to fuck.” Following that first night looking at the black cock pictures, the fantasy of fucking those boys became a routine part of our sex lives. We never talked about the boys when we were not in bed fucking, but I have to admit watching them and maybe even flirting with them at school. It was hard to believe how I could have evolved to fantasizing about fucking black boys, given my conservative. I felt a cold liquid go down and then a painful stinging feeling right down in to my crotch.Jackie smiled saying that was a drop of spirit just to warm you up as she used her long nails to press in to my urethra and flick back and forth painfully.She then lubed a long shiny rod and pushed it down in to my urethra pushing the sting further down in to my crotch and then worked the rod up and down as she looked me in the eyes saying this is just some fun to get you going.She then tied my balls up. She now can wear reasonably fashionable clothes, but the phobia kicks in when she wears something revealing, even a regular two piece bathing suit, much less a bikini.’ ‘It sounds as if I was right. She does need a psychologist, not a hypnotist!’ ‘You keep forgetting that I’m a hypnotherapist as well as a stage hypnotist. I’m not going to try and psychoanalyze her. I don’t care about the roots of her phobia. All I’m going to try to do is get her to overcome it, whatever its cause. She wants to.