Shabana had just said it, and everything Shabana said made so much sense to him. He nodded absently and allowed her to walk me past the throng of gues...s, through the hotel lobby, She took me to her room, She locked the room door behind us, made me sit on the chair in the room with her opposite me, It brought back powerful memories, some that he hadn’t thought about for years. Memories of wanting to impress this beautiful teacher, wanting to show that I was listening and paying attention to her. She sat on the corner of my bed, but didn’t say anything. For a long time, we just sat in silence. Finally, I had to say something. “Gosh, Rachel…I’m really sorry. I’m so embarrassed. You must think I’m a total pervert.” “You don’t know what I think about you.” “Look, don’t try to make me feel better,” I said hotly. “It won’t work.” She didn’t say anything, and suddenly I felt like a heel for venting my anger at her. “I’m…I’m sorry. I didn’t mean for it to sound that way. I’m not mad at you. He doesn't eat. He doesn't sleep. He fucks me pretty well as I've trained him, but he's wasting away and I'm not sure how to help him. I'm his mother and now his lover, but I can't get through to him. Can we please sit down and talk?" Pam begged me."Alright, we can talk it over, but be damned sure to bring those medical documents, too. I'll find out what's at the root of it. We all will," I said, though I suspected that the guy took a major blow to his ego that I hadn't anticipated, given how. ' How on God's good green earth with the little red apples could I resist such an invitation? No self respecting sadist, murdering pervert could. Especially no sexual psychopath worth his salt, or with a good right hook.Page 30. 'Whoa Nelly. Whoa Jenny. Jennifer, do you know what you just said?' How could she not. 'Fuck, I've really got you spooked. Punch you in the cunt? I could rupture you, you know. You're prepared to let me do that to you?' 'Please, oh.