But, what could I say? I owned up to it. ‘Nashey, I think you’re awesome and you’ve been a great friend. Part of me I guess hoped someday we’d...have a change together. But I know I’m being an idiot: you like tall, robust, athletic men of color. I’m 5’9′, I’m 5 years older than you, I’m not in great shape, I’m… white.’ She was biracial — black and Mexican. She’d only dated one white guy and it hadn’t worked out very well. Plus, she was waaaaay too good looking for me to date. I didn’t think I had. My light skin lit up the room. My shoulder length curly hair was pulled back in two separate ponytail. My pink lip glosses added a pop to my thin but plump lips. My cherry red dressed and gold heels would have eyes glued on me in any room I tripped foot in.“ What don’t I know? “ I joked showing my cute slight gap tooth smile.“ When are our dates coming ? ““ 9:30 supposedly “ “ Well it’s a quarter after so they better hurry up “ she said in a sexy annoyed voice.We laughed and joked to kill time. Hell, the only person who at all interested her was...Lessa.For the hundredth time, Shelly wished she had some sexual interest in girls. She had tried, the gods knew, even secretly playing with herself in bed while watching Lessa get undressed, hoping some switch in her brain would click and her wonderful Lessa would suddenly satisfy both sides of her. But, alas, no. Nothing. Only Lessa could provide the friendship, comfort, and security she needed, and only some random guy could give her the. I followed him downstairs and went into the TV room, where the TV was showing a show and mummy was lying full stretch on the settee propped-up by a cushion, and my brother sat on the floor with his back resting against the settee.We ate our pizza and I sat in a chair, off to the left and slightly behind the settee, the room was darkened, and we watched a rented movie.Mummy had been running her fingers through my brothers hair and when she looked around at me I closed my eyes and pretended to be.