.. And I want you very, very much."With that, she took my hand and led me aft to my cabin, pushed me inside, and shut the door behind her. I must admi..., it did feel good to be out of the wind. She quickly lowered the shades on the windows to give us privacy.Then she walked over to me. I was about to ask her what she had in mind, when she put her finger to my lips to shush me, before answering my unasked question anyway."Don't say a word, and don't do a thing. This is for you. And for me. I need. “What do you want, David?”“Shit. I wanted to apologize for being an asshole to you, but your voice tells me I hurt you more than I realized. Words and a drink won’t be near enough, will they?”“Your recognizing that is a step. How about a rye and coke?”David ordered one for me. His manner was easy; his face, still stunningly handsome, and he appeared still to be in good shape. He turned back to me. “I don’t want to make excuses for what I did; I was awful. I deserve… I don’t know what I. Pictures mightbe taken. Friends might see them. Co-workers might get them. Somethingthat was meant to remain private would be exposed for all to see. And yetI was feeling somewhat jealous that I hadn't put more into this specialmoment; I was afraid of disappointing my wife by not being dressed upenough.I closed my eyes and took the final few steps into the reality of thisevening's party. I couldn't go back now. I had to face my wife and friendsdressed as I was, who I was destined to be for. .. 'Kelly huffed. 'If it wasn't for me, that website would still be a bedroom hobby.'Matt looked at her quizzically and she continued.'The website was just starting to take off when Roy and I first started going out. It was getting tons of hits. Too many, in fact. The web hosts were getting twitchy. Their server couldn't cope with the traffic. So they started to charge Roy and his mates more to host the site.'Matt nodded'But I saw the potential, ' she continued. 'The guys were against.