We called it, ‘Duil Runda’ – it means ‘Secret Desire’. We wanted it to be the just a lovely place for honeymoons, or for couples wanting a q...iet getaway ... Businessmen coming out from Belfast, and further away, during the week, with their secretaries, pretending to be at a conference...” She smirks. “These days if anyone calls asking if there’s a conference booked at the hotel we just say yes – we haven’t even got a conference room!”She takes a breath and continues. “We also noticed we had a. Oh god damn, I may as well say it and hope you don’t think me a stupid old man. I’m not with anyone because the only one I can ever think about being with is you.’ Jesus, he was tearing up now. Leigh said nothing more. Instead her arms found their way around his neck. He reached down, scooped her buns into his palms and effortlessly lifted her over the fence and kissed her. The wind, in her mind at least, whipped past them like a typhoon, no hearing, no seeing, just feeling. His searing hands. "Yeah, I know, but I was so mad." Rachel sighed "And I'm sorry, but the surprise of finding my spare pills missing..." Spare pills?" I gaped "You mean you didn't even need the ones that were missing? And you go and ruin my evening for that?" I said I was sorry," she retorted "jeez, it's not as though you had something special lined..."Rachel's voice trailed off as she saw the look on my face, it spoke volumes and told her all she needed to know."Oh no," she groaned "you did have something lined. The reality paralyzed me with such uncertainty that, the man had plenty of time to finish unloading everything into my mouth. Slowly, he pulled out and I watched it disappear. Quickly, I spit out the sour yet sweet white milk from my mouth into the toilet. There was a lot of it as I watched it flush away. I went to the sink and tried to wash my mouth out as best as I could. Then I searched my purse for some gum and popped it into my mouth. Looking into the mirror, I realized I had just given my.