She had hurtme on different occasions, and i had been unaware of the damage untilyears later. Many years later.All systems ready, i thought. My love o... computers had aided me in muchof my pain. First, they had given my pain a way to work itself out,to build them and fix them. Second, They had connected me, after the internet was born. i read many stories, but i had always felt alone,alone because i had never read one like mine. It was at this doubt thati stopped completely. But i resumed,. Okay for me, though I thought briefly about the reason why Anna, her spouse and kids didn't wanted to see our kids and me for a few hours.Linda told me that Anna had a spouse by name Peter, but that didn't give me much information about him. After a holiday at a sunny Mediterranean island Anna had shown her some pictures and Linda told me that Peter was a very handsome man, well built, well trained and almost looking as a body builder.Obviously Linda envied Anna for that good-looking Anders. Although I never really considered myself much of a brain, I did manage to hold my own when it came to classroom work. There was one area, however, that I truly excelled in, and that was computers. My initiation into the world of keyboards and mice came in the form of a scrawny nine year old boy whose parents had recently moved in next door to my own. Jimmy Lance and I took an instant liking to each other, and he became my best friend for the entire seven years that we were neighbors.Jimmy's. I didn't wait to listen for my mother's orgasm, I just wanted to get back to my bed and try to process all this.It took me a while to understand that I didn't seem upset about it, I was turned-on, massively turned-on. I lay there, both hands between my legs fingering myself on and on as I realized that what I'd heard from my parent's bedroom was what I wanted, I wanted my father to have sex with me. I wanted him to be my first.I masturbated for a long time, through a third orgasm then did.