I went and started struggling with the sofa, it was a bit of a brute butit also was a good quality one meaning it was heavy even to my strongbody.Befo...e Jane left she and Chrissie gave me a hand with the sofa whichwhile there was not a lot of strength between the two of them there wasenough to get it inside.I finally put the sofa where she wanted it and flopped down, Christinacame in with the flowers put them where she wanted and flopped down nextto me. I was very aware of what she had just. I was bit relieved after lighting cigarette. All my thoughts vanished I felt like wht I am doing is right as long as she is enjoying and I am also enjoying there is nothing wrong, so I came back to my seat I saw all in the bus were still sleeping except driver and conductor, as soon as the bus started and lights went off we started talking she asked, do you have girlfriend? How many times you had sex? I said this is the first time I am doing all this. She said don’t lie, u look very expert I am. She was attractive but what really drew my attention were her huge tits. She obviously was not wearing a bra and her big full tits were hanging down to her elbows. Now that was not something that I saw regularly. I smiled at her and she smiled back. Her mother was talking to her all the time trying to tell her what to do in court to get her child back from Foster Care. My neighbor was talking to me about her problems. The whole time that young lady and I smiled at one another. There was some. I call it all a dumbass process because it isn’t for the victim, it’s to ease the perpetrator’s conscience. Poorly implemented they are like all of that restorative justice crap, just a second victimization of the victim.Jamie and I, we totally favor letting go of anger, because that internalized anger eats the victim up inside. Meditation is good; understanding is good; acceptance of the unchangeability of the past is good. Forgiveness benefits the perpetrator not the victim. Healing and.