"I laughed and got my own mug, filling it with coffee. Tamara watched me for a moment."So, are you glad you came?" she asked."Pun noted," I replied, t... which she winced. "Yeah, I'm glad I came skiing. I'm surprised though. I haven't had this good of a time in a while." Even compared to playing with Billy?" That's different..." I trailed off. Was it really? "Well, maybe not too different. Though I'm not going to go to bed with Billy."Tamara snorted. "I would hope not!"I felt a little embarrassed. ?” whispered Victoria. I waited for her to say something meaningful. “Is that... ?”“What darling ex-wife?” I said.“Daddy?” said Selena.“That’s ex-daddy to you, Selena,” I said.“Daddy I didn’t know!” she said.“Nor did I!” squealed my ex-wife.“Know what?” I said, Pushing it.“John, please,” said Victoria.“Please what?” I said.“Is that ... are those... ?” said Selena, pointing to the small funeral urn, really just a small sealed nylon container.“Oh those. Yes, those are my wife’s ashes. Yes, she. "Please let me feel loved again," she asked. "For just tonight, I want it to be like it was last year."We made love tenderly — even lovingly. I still had very strong feelings for Suzette and the combination of love and lust made it too easy to give in. I didn't regret it, and I don't think Suzette did, either.Suzette and her parents followed the team in Week 3 to our first away game. It was our last out-of-conference game and it was against a perennial Division II playoff contender, Indiana. It wasn't enough to take me over the edge, but the water felt more exciting than anything I remembered.But that wasn't all. Amanda used her index and middle fingers and started to feel their way around my opening. I was now really moaning and whimpering and the bathroom echoed with the sound as the shower didn't make much noise at all underwater.Finally Amanda shoved the fingers inside me and that was all she had to do. I exploded with such force that even though was barely conscious. My ears.