.. Oh God, I'll just shut up now." She was so embarrassed. Poor Megan just didn't know how to act like a real, feeling human being. I laughed at her n...w. We were all acting a little weird. I guess exploding anti-bullets and things like that will do it to you."It's ok, Megan. Really. She's gone and we can't do anything about that. I have to move on. She wouldn't want me to crawl in a hole. Things are going to hurt for awhile, things people say that bring up memories, and I won't really be ready. We all decided to keep him in the dark, for Bethanne claims that it enhances his fantasy."At some later date I would have to decide whether to tell Kate what I had found out. Will and Barbara convinced me to stay over with them and continue my inspection of the mine and plant facilities in the morning. I made the decision before I went to sleep that I would recommend Will Green for a director's job.Kate and I had been talking every night. She was ready to resume some of her duties with Gram.. Hell, I wasn’t amused!After a couple of days at home with Marilyn, she decided to go shopping, so I called the security company and got somebody to come out. Once they left, I did something I didn’t think I would ever do again. I went into my den and unlocked the bottom drawer of my desk. Inside was a small case with my .45 Colt from the Army, along with my web belt holster. I didn’t know what was going on, but I just didn’t like it. I took it out to the kitchen and scrounged up some cleaning. Don’t let me forget!Well, I’ve talked about the boys. The girls are a bit different, in that most of them haven’t had a real orgasm when they arrive. So their training is mainly about letting them get to know what their bodies are capable of. Abby, who’s one of our senior Guides, is usually in charge of that. She has masturbation classes every weekend, and all the girls attend. Some of the older women do, too, particularly the “black band” ladies who have had some sexual experience but haven’t.