My lower thoughts rebelled out their inner darkness. “You need to go to your son, and give yourself to him completely.” Guilt and shame overwhelme... me. I resumed crying.“What’s the matter child?” Mother returned from her ablutions.“Lila told a very sad story.” I prevaricated.“I should go.” Lila stood in Mother’s presence.“I’ll let you out.” My mom opened the door for her guest. “Please, do come again.” She meant it.I heard her close the door, but I continued weeping into my hands.Mother sat. Also, when i use to go out on business tour, ritu use to manage my office alone. But we never had a slightest doubt on these boys. And to my Utmost surprise, kiran who use to come home, had so much of feeling for my wife.Sanjay said, “madam, you have the most beautiful body on earth.” Manoj was saying, “mam, believe me, i have never seen such a sexy body in my entire life.”Kiran was shy to say anything. He was just admiring her body with his eyes down. He was not able to stop his feelings but. She would carry a little purse on a long strap with $200-$300 in cash and an assortment of condoms and a lipstick and some gum and nothing else. She would go to a hotel bar in an area near the airport. She would hang out at the bar and nurse a drink until I came up and asked her the cost of a date and what was available in earshot of other bar patrons and the bartender. Well, she went to the bar all dressed up in a micro mini and a push up bra and showing off her cleavage and I was on my way. I could smell the faint odor of chlorine-soaked wood in the air coming from the pools and saunas. The attendant welcomed me and gave me the tour. We started in the locker room, which was a small area to hang your clothes up on hooks (hence the lock boxes for valuables). The showers were off to the side. Through the door was the main tub area, which he didn’t show me at the time. There were various floors of tubs and saunas, including the rooftop hot tub that allowed you to see the stars and.