The fear I feel is really my only!Of the past remember that when I returned home, full of pain and unhappy, I felt great fear of my ability. I dreaded...to think of the things that I had agreed to do and also the fact that I was ready to do even those things and even more.Sometimes I thought that the next meeting could be the last. I could also die, and I was only 19 years old! At night, I massaged the buttocks, and breasts always marked with bruises. I cried for my destiny, but inside I was. She had said that talking would come later, and it seemed that slow, languid love-making would also come later. What was needed now was an orgasm, delivered orally. Mine had already happened, so now it was my turn to provide hers.I positioned myself on my stomach, and kissed her left leg just above her knee. She lifted it, as if to help guide me, so I started a trail of little kisses along the inside of her thigh. My hands moved under her legs, then came to the outside of her thighs, and slid. " Can I see?" See me do it? Like when you walked in on me?" Yeah, see you jack-off, that's what boys do, right? They shoot cum out the end and it's all white and sticky?" Right so far. Um, you won't ever tell? Promise?" Yes, I promise," she said."Let's go up to my room then," I told her and she followed me up as I wondered just what I might be getting into. If this ever got out, I'd be dead.Now, my sister was thirteen and she was just changing from a skinny little kid into a real girl. Her. He said he'd just sit in the corner watching us make love and we wouldn't even know he was there." "Of course," I grinned, "He'd sit in the corner and quietly jack off while he watched us." "That's what he told me, but he called it 'beating off.' I told him not to get his hopes up, or anything else. So then he offered to bring his camera and make a very professional video for us." I chuckled and shook my head, "Well, that's a new angle." "Yep. He said he did it for another couple and it turned.