”Emily looked down at the table for a few minutes before speaking.“Mom, I ... I don’t know what is wrong with me. When that boy started pumping ...is penis between my legs all I could think about is David. The jerk made it worse by telling everyone at school that I had sex with him, on my front porch, with my mom watching. Something happened in my head. I was seeing through my eyes, but I wasn’t seeing myself in my own body. I didn’t care who saw my body naked, who I sucked off, or who I let have. A few minelayer"RING BUZZZZZZ RING BUZZZ” it was Darions cell he answered it and a few seconds later he got off then said "Fuk I got to go back to work" in a mad voice then I asked “if u leave can Ant stay here" "Y"? Because I’ll be here alone again and I hate being alone” he looked mad the said “I’ll be back in 3 hours so stay out of trouble" I smiled with joy. In 10 min he was changed and gone. As soon as he was gone Ant got on top of then he untied my top and threw it off and we started. I had put an ad on the internet hoping to find an older married black man that would want to have sex with me for a little while. I wasn't after just sex; any woman can go to a bar and find that. I was looking for a man who knows the value of a good woman, and married men seem to have that covered. I was looking for someone to have an affair with, someone who is lonely on some level and looking for someone like me to fill that void. At this point in my life I'm tired, tired of trying, tired of. So Minaxi Mam asked me to stay for another hour more so that I could perform better in exams. One evening it was 7 and all the other students had lest and I was asked to stay for another hour so I stayed and was reading. Mam asked me to take out the grammar book and do some exercise.I started doing what she asked. In the meantime, she said she was going to take a bath and also I had to finish my assignment before she came back. But there was something else going in my mind. I didn’t know.