How my fear and apprehension caused me to be stiff – cautious at first?While I am naked lying on my back on the bed, Ed gently kisses only my lips a...d putting his hands gently on my face, he traces my facial structure as a blind person would, learning every curve, every turn, until it is imprinted on his mind, his lips and fingers. I kiss and worship his features as if I am experiencing the pain, suffering and hard work that built his character. I kiss him tentatively at first and as I learn. Jill comes over to me and gives me a big Christmas kiss. Jill, Tina, and Mom all head out to the limo where Fred stoically waits for the ladies. Once everyone is inside, he opens the gate and off they go. At this point, Sammy is making a tray of appetizers. At this point, he is making a veggie cream cheese on Ritz crackers topped with a slice of either cucumber or cherry tomatoes.Watching Bobby and Sammy work made me think of Dakota and me, we seem to just know each other’s rhythm. Of course, I. They have some kind of deal worked out where she finishes her class work with his support and they'll get her certified as having earned her degree somehow.Anyways, since Erica and I are nursing newborn babies, we decided to sit in on a few classes. Professor Paxson studied societies and cultures, so his class is an examination of social dynamics in what he calls a surplus culture. I think he's using the students as research subjects, but he does get a good crowd. I even got John out of his. I had read a story last year about a guy and his problems with his passport, which did not give me a lot of confidence that I would do any better. I of course had several ideas as to how I could get out of the country without a passport but as Steve pointed out leaving bodies behind usually attracted unwanted attention.In school, I had other problems although grades were not one of them. My problem was the success that not only I was having but also the domination the girls were having, beating.