"I wanted to believe Nick was still alive, but that crime scene photo thatDetective Kaho had shown Nick and I swam into my recollection. Anyone whoco...ld perpetrate that kind of monstrosity was clearly ruthless, insane orboth, and probably more besides. I was unprepared for how much it hurtthat Nick was gone from my life; the tears rolled down my face, drippingfrom the point of my chin, sobs racking my body. I had to stay focusedthough - one way or another, his murderer was going to be. After Joanne went off, Mei Ling had feigned drowsiness from all the shopping and said she felt sleepyafter all that good food. It was a warm and humid day and she was tired from walking around the boutiques. Alex then suggested that she go up with him to his suite to freshen up and maybe to have a short nap before he sends her back to Joanne's.She quickly agreed quite happily saying she needed a shower as well.They walked to the elevator, and ML could see that Alex couldn't keep his eyes off. Amos would drive with Doris covering our rear. We would keep a couple of hundred yards between us for safety. If we stopped, they would hang back in guard position while Jane and I went forward to investigate.Amos wasn't happy about Jane being with me to investigate until she explained to him that she was a hand-to-hand combat expert and we had agreed that we would never be separated. He accepted that though I could tell he was reluctant. However, he also found that it's hard to argue with Jane. We cried into each other's shoulders and rocked each other for comfort. After a time, I got up and fixed us a drink, whiskey on the rocks, just as I know my dad would have done following bad news. We talked quietly about the whole thing and had some more drinks. It was well into the night when we each decided to get to bed.I never even changed out of my trunks and t-shirt. I just sat on the edge of my bed in shock. Thoughts swirled in my drunken head, thoughts of self-pity, regret, and sorrow.