I can’t walk around Saint Laurent Mall for more than five minutes without seeing a Black guy, a chubby White chick and their brats. I also see a lot...of White guys walking around with Asian chicks. And lately, I’ve been seeing young Black women with older White guys. I know for a fact that most Canadians don’t like the idea of immigrants from Africa, the Caribbean, Latin America, Asia or the Middle East moving to Canada annually. Yet White guys and White chicks living in Canada seem eager to. Because no matter how I wanted to look at it and wanted to call it something else, there was no way that I could. A boy had [ Fucked ] me in my mouth and I had let him.They didn't ask me to go to the drive-in movie with them for almost 5 or 6 weeks. Probably because they wanted to see how I felt about what had happened and wanted me to calm down or whatever before they tried to do me again.The first 2 or 3 weeks I was still pretty upset but then when they hadn't asked me to go with them again,. Or even better, with both of us.”“Right,” Julie said.“How did you get such a good score on the social studies test, Carol?” Jake asked.“Oh, that was easy. I always get good grades. I just don’t let on so people won’t think I’m a freak or something.”“Well, brainy thing, I know who I’m going to go to for help with my classes from now on,” he said and then kissed her. “There’s nothing sexier than a smart girl.”Carol giggled. “You’re just saying that, but thanks. You can study with me.”“Tell me. I was rubbed raw, and the dildo lay between my legs, sticky with my own juices. "I've got to stop doing this," I said to myself, as I rubbed my eyes, trying to wake up and clear my head. It had been a long time since my head was clear, and I was truly awake.As I sat at my kitchen table, sipping coffee, and looking back through those horrible photographs, I felt calm for the first time in a long time. I recalled my fantasies of the night before. It had been a long time since I had been.