Chris is going to take me to Camber and get the shoot done on location."Simon just stood there, phone in hand, unable to speak."Simon? You still there..." Yes, yes, Marianne, I'm still here." Do you mind?"There was another pause, before Simon answered, "No, no, of course not, Marianne. Off you go — enjoy yourself."He heard Marianne's excited voice scratchily from the phone, "Oh, thank you, Simon, thank you. I'll see you tonight, or if it runs late, it'll probably be tomorrow. See you!"He heard. After all this effort,to get all dressed up and after having this fantasy for years, how couldI back out now? I would never have a chance like this again! Even afterI rang the bell I wanted to turn and run away! When Sally didn't answerright away, I started thinking that maybe she wasn't home; maybe I'msaved! But then the door started to open, now I had to go through withit. I took a deep breath to compose myself; this is it!"Hi, I'm Deedee." Deedee has a low throaty voice, which I've. From what everyone told me it seemed she was a faithful soul; once she gave her promise she stuck by it through thick and thin. She had promised herself to Derek. Best to concentrate on getting access to the children and let her get on with her life.The thought hurt but it was right. Ann and I were history, in the past. Now we needed to get on with our own lives, but unbidden that surge of regret and resentment returned. This whole situation should never have happened. Talking of getting on. The only way I would feel good about it would be to ask Kara if it was OK to go, which would mean telling her about Jessica. If Kara approved of THAT, then I’d go. If she didn’t, then I wouldn’t, and I’d find something else to do on Friday night — perhaps go out with Bethany. The last thing I wanted to do at this point was step over a line that Kara couldn’t accept and mess things up. That would be a disaster of epic proportions for both of us. She’d given me some freedom; I just had to avoid.