I had always thought of the knicker allowance as providing a bit of an excuse to give the ladies with a little extra. In the way of pocket money that ...s. I didn't think they were spending all the money on under garments, but now that I thought about it I realised that they probably were. What might seem pretty generous to me was in fact no more than covering the cost of the frilly bits. I discovered this a day or two later when I went into town and peered in the window of the lingerie shop;. 2: An Unbreakable Vow One year and three months later: ‘Tell me Grant, why don’t we ever see or talk to your family? Is it because of me?’ ‘No Kisara. Well, yes, but… How can I say this?’ Grant appeared deep in thought. ‘Am I an embarrassment?’ ‘No. Absolutely not. I love you Kisara and there is not a day that goes by that I don’t feel blessed to have you in my life. My family is just… complicated.’ Grant began rubbing his temples, something he does when he is unsure of himself or what to say.. Noma & Lil Would take Soli and escorts Noma's tribe home when they were ready to depart. Then it would be time for Noma to make up her mind where she wanted to be. She had made a carrier for Tiensi so she could ride on Noma' s back. Right now healing the injured was the most important Six days later Noma and her Clan was ready to travel. Lil was so thrilled to be going along and Soli seemed to be a bit excited as well. Flit was a gain picked as point scout. While Noma, Lil And Soli headed out. I loved her just as much, more even, today than I did when we first met.I had thought I would feel more pain than this, but for some reason I just felt empty. No anger, sadness, grief or loss just a void. A dark and cold emptiness. I wondered at that. How can It be that after so long together I can contemplate my wife, in bed with another man, and not feel anything. I loved her with all my being and yet seeing her in his arms just left me feeling only very slightly sad. Nothing more.I watched.