Adam saying that he loves me after the second time we had sex and him telling me to stay... My face is burning red and without a second glance, I sli...e into my car and close my door before taking deep breaths. "Whoa. Whoa. Whoa. Lexxa, what's wrong? You look like you have just seen a ghost!" Ally says panicking, patting me down for my keys. "I'm fine Ally," I tell her. But I am far from fine. I am not fine. I lost my virginity to an arrogant bastard, who I am now avoiding, and has been. . It was a dammed if I did,and dammed if I did not...I knew I would always regret not doing this if I ran. In the end I guessmore of me wanted to explore the world that had filled last nights dreamswith erotic imagery, than wanted to run away because by twenty past six Iwas kneeling next to my rucksack. Although it was early I was not reallyaware of it being cold, probably because I felt like I was burning upwith embarrassed apprehension and excitement. I could feel everymillimetre the bikini. .mein uskay upper leyta aur uski tangien uthaa kar uski choot mein apna lun daal dia aur aram aram say usko choodna shoro kardia…kabi mein usko kiss karta aur kabi mein uskay maamy choosta aur kabi uskay ears ko lick karta…thori he deer mein hum dono ek sath discharge hogaey aur meine apna lun nikal kar uski bell per rakh dia ….phir unsay tissue say usko saaf kia aur hum dono nangay he ek sath soogaey…Sham ko jab mere ankh khuli tu meine dekha woh bed per nai hai…mein usko dekhtay hue bahir. You have only goneout in your neighborhood doing mostly lawn and garden work and thatstopped when you began to be confronted by other boys your age. That iswhy you were looking for a job nearby. You could go to work and comeback straight home without much chance for confrontation. You can't hide anymore, Rachel! As Rachel you don't have to hide and you canbegin to live your life outside of your neighborhood. When you learnhow to interact with others and truly be yourself then Ricky will havea.