I lost. End of story." Honey, life can't be wrapped up neatly in a single metaphor," said thewaitress. "It's a game, yes. But it's a lot more than jus... that. Not allgames are 'I Win/You Lose.' There are plenty of win/win situations in thereal world. And I don't think you're a loser." Well, I think I'm a loser," said the woman in a louder voice. "I shouldnever have even be born. I don't fit in ... fit in here in society, inthis city, in these clothes, in this body. Who am I? Just who the fuck. "I apologise for ... for causing you to never know your father."She reached across and grabbed my hand in hers, gently rubbing it. "It's okay. Really. I've gotten used to never knowing my father. I have a step-dad. And I know how bad the Black Knight was. If not you, then someone would have stopped him."I frowned, looking down at my lap. This was going to take some getting used to. I just knew I was going to look at everyone I passed, wondering if I was their father."I'm going to have to get. Yes, Cliff read the book forward and backward. He firmly believed in the non-physical method of child raising. Dr. Spock never tried his methods on a kid like Cain. If he had, his book would have been completely different.You can say no to Cain until you're blue; he doesn't mind. You can talk and reason until you're black and blue; nothing gets through. Even at the age of three, Cain would stand flat-footed and yell, "NO!" Consequently, Cain grew up getting his way. I don't dare try to shop. But to his surprise she just gave him a little half smile as she turned and walked into school as though nothing had happened. But that had been so long ago now it seemed. They had started to see each other a couple of weeks after that. He had been so surprised that she didn’t tell anyone what had happened on that ‘special’ morning that somehow he had found the courage to ask her out. He could still hardly believe she had said yes. But she had, and now they were boyfriend and girlfriend,.