At least for a few moments. Thosewere the moments she stood in front of her cabinet. Watching therazorblades. Right next to the bandages, skin closure...strips and sterilecompresses. For minutes. Sometimes longer. Ramona kept coming back aswell on those days. Staring blankly into the cabinet. Not doing it madeher feel proud of herself. And disappointed. The negativity was in her,did not bled out.Maybe the loneliness added to her current feelings. She tried dating butalways felt either disgusted. Go ahead and see what you want.”Helen smiled broadly, and returned to the cooler. She opened the lid and leaned in, reaching for a frozen ice cream cone, the kind with chocolate icing and nuts on top. Then she turned around to find the store owner still looking at her.“Know what else I forgot?” she said sheepishly, “I didn’t bring any money with me. Sorry I bothered you.”“Guess you got out on the wrong side of the bed this morning, young lady. Didn’t even take time to get dressed.” the man. It's up to the receiver to figure out where the ball will go when he chucks it. Congratulations!"Then she looked at him carefully and chuckled saying, "This is going to be a very funny evening. Cath, in spite of having his brains scrambled, Bradley is smart — or at least he used to be. He was Phi Beta Kappa at Yale with a degree in economics and now has his MBA from Harvard. The poor thing was a Baker Scholar up there."Turning to Ken she said, "Cathy, here, is only a poor English major from. The first round is Come as You Are, so just go straight to your booth. Judging starts in five minutes. There's a fifteen minute break after that round for you to get into your bikini for the Bikini Bike Ride. After that, the following rounds run continuously, so if you want to touch up your make-up you'll have to do that while you're getting into your bikini." Even though the name of the round was Come as You Are, it was pretty clear that only a few of the twenty-five contestants were like.