I thenrealised that I was looking into a sex shop window and the man inside wasbeckoning me to come in.Once inside Jane found a corset and said, "Hey,...Simone, you always saidyou wanted your own corset, well this looks perfect, why don't you try iton. Go on I dare you."I had never turned down a dare before and I didn't intend to start now.Besides I didn't want the sex shop Worker to realise that I was a man so Iwent into the changing room to try it on. As I unzipped my dress I lookedat myself. Once she came to my house with her parents. Parents are talking, we were speechless. We are sitting a side, then she is saying.. He is not at all a good person (her husband), I am unable to live with him, and asking me like make me your wife and we will go to some other place and live together, I want to be with you only shiva.. I love you, I love you, I love you forever…I’m speechless.. I consoled her for few days and made her relax.. And we started to talk like before.. Making calls and. Everybody takes care of everybody else's kidshere. Still, I'm really attached to Myonnen, and I think she is tome. When she cries, I'm almost as good at quieting her as Chiacl is.Aug. 10, 2000Dear God, now I'm scared. Chiacl's really sick today, and her milk forMyonnen has dried up. I've been standing by the medicine woman, prayingwhile she works, and offering to do anything I can to help. She finallytook me out away from the village, pointed to a grove of plants, and toldme I could help. Softly she rubbed the familiar shape. She was accustomed to her body but seldom paid it much special attention. Now she was trembling slightly and her lips parted in a faint sigh. The fingers found the nipple through the fabrics and gently pinched it a little. Time and place stopped to exist, now there was only the fantasy about him, the man beyond her reach in whose chair she was sitting, whose jacket enfolded her thin shoulders. The idle hand found the other breast and now she held them more.