He got closer to me. "and i also could tell Lloyd about our little secret." he threatened. my head fell into my hands. i really wanted Phil, but i cou...dn't bare the guilt id have to live with. "Look i don't want to force you to fuck me but.." ,"fine I'll do it." i said finally. Phil smiled. his perfect white teeth gleamed in the darkness. Phil reached in for a hug. i as i walked into his embrace, i felt his abs press up against mine. Phil rubbed my back before he gave my butt a nice slow. It was Sunday morning so traffic was light and Andy speed across town cursing every red light, but finally pulled into the driveway beside Jenny's Honda. He didn't have a clue what he was going to say to her or if he would even be accepted back, but he put the car in first gear then killed the motor. He decided to spill the beans, tell her he had a short fling, but it was over. He entered the house looking for Jenny, but nobody was home. He glanced into the back yard and she wasn't there. He was feeling even better after the finish of this week and his having "made the rounds" again as he viewed it.That night, Philip finished working in his home office and he made his way up to the master bedroom where his beautiful wife, Mary, had headed earlier to take her bath and head for bed as well. Philip marveled at how sexy Mary still was even though he didn't think of either of them even being middle-aged but he had to admit that many times a day he'd get hardons not only from thinking. .. again. As I went to pick up my check, he had another idea.Forty minutes later I was no longer a virgin, but I still had a job. The funny thing about it was that I felt nothing. It made me think. For most of my life it wasn't just that life had passed me by, I was disconnected. I didn't feel anything. I had no idea what love was. I also had no true hatred. Over the next couple of years, I started using what I had to get ahead. It wasn't like I became a whore or anything. But if I needed a few.