I want to be left alone, damn it."The doctor sat back. "Jason, anger at your therapist is quite common. It means we are moving forward. It is the ange... towards your tormentor that is being re-directed at me. Let your anger out," she said."You mean Roberta?" Jason asked incredulously. The doctor nodded. Jason started laughing. "Oh my God. Angry at her?" He had to wipe away the tears. "Have you ever had sex?"The doctor started, "This isn't about me..." I guess that means no. I'm angry at the. Me- wanna feel then?She- no (and she tried to ran but I held her from behind) what are you doing leave me?Me- not today ha.She- maami will come.Me- mom is sleeping. She- but this is wrong.Me- say this by putting eyes in my eyes.She- what if anyone gets to know?Me- who will tell to anyone? She- what if something happens wrong?Me- how will happen wrong? Am I here nah? Just shut your mouth and enjoy the moment.I held her waist and placed a kiss on her lips. She closed her eyes tight. I speed up. " Smiling he tells me. "You will do well. You have the skills and ability. Good luck."He closes the door and walks toward the edge of the runway leaving me alone in the airplane.While taxing toward the beginning of the runway apprehensiveness and excitement vie for control over me.I think, "This is it! I will finally be a pilot. My first solo."Nervousness grips me and my mind races to think of everything I have to do. I read the checklist with a new thoroughness. I no longer have Jeff watching. I was greeted by a hunk of a man standing 6'2 and close to 200lbs. He was hairy, a heavy stubble, arm and leg hair was shown. He was built and his chiselled pecs showed up through a tight fitting t-shirt. 'Hi boy, come on in'', ''you're such a cutie, follow me I can't wait to get started on you'' I followed in a speechless haze with this man, checking out his tight calf muscles in his shorts.He went upstairs and into the master bedroom, not looking around knowing I was following him, knowing I.