He loved her but couldn’t bear the thought of repeating his forest performance. He pulled her up and fell back into his usual moves. Despite her bes... efforts, the evening ended much as a hundred before had. After they were finished, she quietly cried herself to sleep, as disappointed as ever. The whole thing was quite paradoxical, for even though Aaron appeared on the outside to be the very definition of boring, within his mind he was quite different. At the hospital he had opportunity to. There was someone inside. Some fat pissed-up guy was lying snoring in the bath. He seemed grotesque to me at this moment in time. Quite astonishingly ugly: greasy ginger hair matted to his forehead/ his bare podgy feet resting crossed between the taps. Before Id even got to the toilet the vomit was rising in my throat. I threw up the lid and dropped to my knees just as it all hurled out of my mouth into the pan. This happened four times before my stomach was fully emptied. *You awright hen?*. We got scared. They ask ” sara zaver kaha hai” my mom pointed out two big bags. They grabbed it and threw it outside in the jeep. Then they went to individual women and start ripping off the jewelery from their ears, neck and fingers. It was very dark. When they reached to my new bhabi, they passed the remarks ” kiya cheez hai, suhag raat bana li tu ab tak” my bhabi was very good looking she got mad and slapped the robber. He got furious and grabbed her wrist and “bohat aag hai teray mai, hum. There would be an accounting held, and I would collect on it. I could have let the hate feed me. I could have let the hate consume me with a righteousness, but I, once again, let myself go. I brought the focus back to myself and let myself be nothing. All thought was released and all feelings were let alone to be what they wanted to be. These feelings became part of my fiber and part of my essence. I accepted them and absorbed them. I let them become me as much as I became them. They were only.