I was powerless to stop it. I was glad Fred was there. I felt ... I felt an overwhelming sense of mourning for what was dead and gone. Fred understood...what was happening to me."Now, what I'm about to say may sound a bit hard, but you have got to suck it up, Jake. Your situation has changed and you have to change with it. That's all you need to know. Grow up ... Get your body back in shape, move on. On your feet, soldier ... March or die ... The answers to your problems are not in a bottle.. My wife looked at me and said. "Honey this is Derek, he is one of my new lovers. He came here today to fuck me with his big black cock, and I thought it would be a nice treat for you to be able to watch it happen. My jaw dropped and my body began shivering at the sight of this black man now wrapping his arms around my wife. Then my wife said. "Now you just stand there in front of that door and don't let anybody else inside, as you watch and play with your little white cock while Derek here. OK, now I recognized what was going on. What looked like a wino sitting on a door stoop guzzling wine was actually a dope dealer. I watched for a few minutes and the pseudo wino eventually got up and moved to another stoop. He was visited there by a few customers. Eventually, he got up and wandered into a convenient alley. I wondered what he could be doing there, unless he just needed to piss.He didn't come right out, so I made my way to the alley and peered in. It was a very long unlit alley,. Dale was told to wait for me there. I was ushered along the corridor and into one of the dressing rooms. 'They'll dress you and put some stage make-up on you next, ' The Handyman said.'What's going on? Yesterday they thought I probably wouldn't be needed.''Same kind of thing, the performance has got to feel right. Image is everything these days, everything has to be just so. Little details you or I would never think of ... how the guitars and outfits appear in different coloured lights ....