I'm having a tough time saying what I want to."Kostowe sighed. "Ah. Deb, I'm an old man, and not too likely to be too embarrassed to say what needs sa...ing any longer. I've made my choices in life, as have you, but they are not irreversible. I would think it is not too late for you to start new relationships. And if you met the right man, even now, it isn't too late for you to be a mother."Deb stared ahead, driving automatically, unaware of the road. "All my loves have been women, Jack. I .... . You know, sort of talk her into letting you hug her or maybe even hold her so she’ll feel good about herself.”“Kiss me, Cindy. Don’t you let those boys come in your pussy. You’re going to be my girl and if I can convince your mom to come with us out to our new ranch in the country, I want her and you to be my wives.”“YES, help Mom and I’ll love you forever.”“Where is her room? Do you think it will be alright if I go back there?”“Down the hall to the last room on your left. Make my Mom feel as. I dont think so. I cant remember her name anyways though, he told her. I just rolled my eyes and looked over at my Uncle, who was giving me the shoot me now, please! look. Well kids, he started. Its about time I turn in. Be nice to each other all right? Aw, stay up with us! begged Maddie. Sorry sweetie. Ill be up and at em with you tomorrow, he promised. Then he turned to his son. Tom. Night Pa, Tom said. Then Uncle Henry nodded towards Paul, Greg, Sunny and I with another good night, failed to. He cautiously asked, "Can I come in?"I didn't answer.I must have looked totally pathetic, with my face all wet from crying. I rolled onto my back and pulled the blanket up tight around my chin because I was completely naked under the covers and I was so embarrassed and upset. It took a long time for me to calm myself down enough to whisper, "Okay, come in."He came in and sat down on my bed, way down by my feet.I said, "I'm sorry I'm crying like this." No, don't apologize, it's okay, I think I.