Evan's mind was racing."If I slam the door closed really fast now, will a bullet be able to go through it? Should I talk to them and find out what the... want?" Evan ended up just standing completely frozen and still.It seemed the person was waiting for something to happen, but after what seemed like several minutes of the two facing off, the person holding the gun sighed. It sounded like a female, mostly confirming Evan's suspicion. Evan stared directly at her eyes, which seemed to be darting. I always wore underwear, except to bed, where I was encouraged to wear pyjamas, or nothing at all, I chose the later in my teens as my sexuality after puberty, usually meant I masturbated before going to sleep and even more daily when ever I was 'in heat' (ovulating' prior to my periods)During my masturbatory sessions I found my mind very active about sex and most of my thinking bordered around subservience, the men were always dominant, and I was always ready to receive them at their will.1.. ”Saturday afternoon, a number of the Circle members sat on the patio in various levels of dress when Dave escorted Derek, Abby, and Emily, and Brian and Joan into their midst. Derek was pleased to see several of the women were topless like the other day when he’d visited to see his wife’s video. Emily was almost dressed in a revealing new bikini that hugged her body like a tight glove, and left little to the imagination. As she took off her wrap, even Brian gawked at her. He looked shocked but. Every time I looked at any of my lovers, I felt their incriminating judgment. I’d driven Kate away. I’d let her drift, hidden what I was painting, held back some portion of my trust. It was my fault that Kate was gone and I felt like shit.Wendy wasn’t in her room. Part of me hoped she’d caught up with Kate so at least the two of them could be together and part of me was afraid I’d lost her, too. But she’d chosen. She’d chosen to stay with me as a master instead of going with Kate, whom she.