As I struggled to my feet, Kola and Caitlin came rushing forward to help me get up."Are you okay, my mate?" Kola asked me, her voice filled with conce...n."I will be," I said in a tired voice, "once I've had a nice bath and a strong drink to ease my pains. Until then I'm going to be grouchy."I had meant my words to reassure people that I was alright. If they did, I didn't sense it. Instead I sensed concern and fear and a hell of a lot of tension. I blinked my eyes in an attempt to focus my vision. He was just glad it was finally Friday and he could pick up his paycheck at the accounting office.Maybe he could talk his young wife Susan into going out for a few drinks at Rusty's Western Club later that evening. It was about the only place in the little blue collar town to find good music and relaxation.Lanny knew that Susan didn't like the rowdy crowd at Rusty's. But what the hell else was there to do to have a little fun? He sure wished she would join in the fun, drinking with his friends. It was so hard to believe that we were so similar, or so I thought I should have realized that we were different however, Amy had on a plain red blouse and Nancy had a low cut blouse. She had quite a rack and even though I could not do anything about it, it was always good to look. We went to the bar and sat there for hours and we were all wasted. We went up to their room for more drinks. The woman were sitting on the couch just laughing and laughing about stupid stuff. We were all pretty. "Her voice trailed off but I wasn't immediately eager to fill that void. It wasn't that I didn't want to tell her; hell, in a few days the whole fucking world would probably know. I just didn't want to relive it. Not again. I had been reliving it uncontrollably for months now; thoughts, nightmares, panic attacks. I couldn't get away from it. I had hoped by going with Jeanie I would be able to outrun it somehow.I should have known better. You couldn't outrun yourself."There's not much to tell,".